I hate myself and everything that I am…
I’m a mistake, my life is pointless - nobody would ever love me -
I wanna leave without a trace - no one would care - poeple = shit
I want to fucking kill myself and nobody would give a fuck.
I had one fucking point in life and that was to make other people happy but it’s just one of those things that are impossible - no one coulod ever love the fucking freak of natur I am… I hidious - I have no true friends - exceot for one - who is my gf’s best friend - and my gf doesn’t even love me - she’s more like -. i like you but not love you
we’ve been together for over two months - you’d think i meant mor eto her than that - she meant the world to me - but none of my love is returned EVER- I hate my life -I just fucking want to die
get over with all the pain I have to go though ever fucking day - I’m never myself -.im the peoson people - or my so called friends want me to be -
FUCK people who say I have a heart of gold - IF I HAVE A HEART OF GOLD - THEN TELL ME ME PLEASE WHY THE FUCK DOES NO ONE LOVE ME ?? WHY IS IT THAT HEART OF GOLD NEVER WINS?? NICE GUYS NEVER WIN - THE ARE DOOMED TO LOSE - i’M FUCKING CRAYING AT HOW INCREDIBLY HATED NICE GUYS ARE — it’s as if all the assholes win
but when I try to be an asshole - most girls just love guys who basically hate them - treat them as fucking dirty skanks and hate them … WHY DO GIRLS LIKE SUPPRESSIPON LIKE THAT?? it makes absolutely no sense to me?!
I just fucking want do die - alone and unloved as I am’
look at me - Im pathetic - no wonder no1 loves me - I’m ugly - I’m 6’3” weigh about 150 lbs or more - crying like a little girl - because I’m so fucking unwanted - none of my “friends” want to hang with me cuz I’m just an asshat to the, - at least I get them to laugh - that’s the height of my day
seeing another person happy is my goal in life - and knowing it’s because of me is more than pure happiness to me… but nobody will ever love me or like me in anyway - I might be attractive but no1 lwill like me fir who I am - that support guy - that guy who makes everyone elkse happy - I’m such a fucking bitch…
why don’t I just let it go?
well… I don’t want to make anyone upset - it hurts to see anyone sad…. or to know that i’ve hurt anyone….
I could though…
tomorrow I could be dead or alive…. I’ll be holding a 12 gauge hunting shotgun… with shells easily capable of shooting and killing me… so it? or don’t do it…?
I’ve always felt that people only love each other when they are dead - i’d die known as that guy who is incredibly nice but no one will truly know how much pain I go through every day- seeing other people being in love or talking about their crushes or what ever - they have so much - I have myself - and one person who I thought loved me back - apparently not…
fuck it all - fuck this world fuck everything that you stand for - I don’t belong….
I just need some feedback that somebody - anybody actually likes me …
Life is too short for regrets, live life the way you want to, so you can live life without regrets.
hanging with bros - gon be sweet
gon be soooo wasted <3